"Trouble and distress have come upon me, but your commands are my delight." And it hit me. Trouble and distress. That was all I had been feeling. This disease and all that goes with it is summed up with those two words… trouble and distress. So I looked up the rest of the scripture that surround that one. And starting with Psalm 119 verse 144 it reads like this in the NIV.
give me understanding that I may live.
145 I call with all my heart; answer me, O LORD,
and I will obey your decrees.
146 I call out to you; save me
and I will keep your statutes.
147 I rise before dawn and cry for help;
I have put my hope in your word.